Thursday, September 29, 2011

Wii I lost more weight!

So at the start of all of this I had told myself I wouldn't weigh myself every week. I wouldn't be a slave to the scale but I find that weighing myself so far has motivated me to keep on keeping on. So you can imagine how excited I was last night when I pulled out the old Wii Fit and weighed myself to discover that in 6 days I had lost another 2.2 pounds! I'm so excited to report that since September 8, 2011 I have lost a total of 13.8 pounds.

My husband and mother in law have been saying for over a week that they can see the difference and I'm just not starting to believe them. It is a small difference but it is still a difference.

Would I have this surgery again? In a second! I would even find a way to pay for it out of pocket if I had to.

Happy Thursday Everyone!


Friday, September 23, 2011

O-R-E.....oh :-(

So it has been 15 days since I had my surgery and today was the first day that I had a snack attack. Not just a snack attack but it was the first day that I felt like I could have eaten all day and didn't feel full it all, it was just like old times.

I started off good having my chocolate Unjury protein shake mixed with warm skim milk (so yummy. I moved on to a Chobani pomegranate yogurt. Yesterday I probably wouldn't have been able to finish all 6oz of the yogurt without feeling full but today it did nothing for me.

Shortly after that like say 2 hours later I had 1-2 oz of deli chicken (I can now have cold cuts and canned tuna yay me!) a couple pieces of smoked Gouda and 3 crackers. Still not full!!! Even wit the crackers I wasn't full.

Have I mentioned that I'm a stay at home Mom so when I have a craving or am hungry it is even harder to redirect myself as I'm always in the kitchen/living area. One of my babies is still on the bottle and his soy formula doesn't look appealing at all but my 2 year old eats frequently and any food at this point looks good to me... well today it looked REALLY good I almost licked his face clean instead of using a washcloth ... I know sick, right?

So here is here the day gets bad.... Both boys go down for their afternoon nap and I'm also really tired so I figure I'll take a nap with them... but my stomach was telling my head that it was hungry and not only was it hungry but it wanted some of those yummy Oreo cookies my husband and little one have. Not only are the yummy but they have the orange filling for Halloween to make them seem even healthier!

I'm not proud but I ended up having 2 which is way better than the 6 I normally would have had and is also a serving size. I ate them LOVED them and regretfully logged it into my food journal. I didn't feel good about eating the Oreo cookies but I also understand that this lapband thing just isn't some other diet it is a way of life and I know that there is no way I could happily live life never having another Oreo so with that I'm very proud that I did only have the serving size.

I'm enjoying another protein shake right but while feeling sooooooo HUNGRY!

My first fill isn't until 10/26 so I'm hoping that today is just a fluke and that I'll be happy once again with the 1/2 of food per meal.

On the bright side I have lost 3 pounds since last weighing myself on 9/14 putting me at 263. I can't wait to be out of the 60's.

Has anyone else had a food break down?


Sunday, September 18, 2011

Not SO hungry

Well I'm happy to say at 10 days out and on soft foods like mashed potatoes, yogurt, and what not I'm not nearly as hungry as I was 5 days ago. I went to see my surgeon on Wednesday and got weighed I was so very excited to have lost 8 pounds and I was ECSTATIC to be out of the 270s and into the 260s. That is my new mini goal to just go 10 pounds at a time. My second goal is to get to 199 and from there I would LOVE to be at 140/150. My next appointment will be on October 26th and I will get my first fill, I'm very excited. I have been following my doctors guidelines and drinking an Unjury drink 3 times a day (I try to drink them before meal times as it helps fill me up). I'm also eating between 1/2 to 1 cup of food at each meal mostly my meals have been on the lower end towards a 1/2 cup.

I think starting out with soft food really is a good idea I found that sometimes I don't even get 2 chews in before I'm ready to swallow and I know that could cause me some pain with other foods.

I have been using the lapband website to log my food, weight, and activities (so far I've only logged 1 walk but I am still healing). I really like the tools on the site it reminds me a lot of the weight watchers online site that I really liked to use. Speaking of Weight Watchers I just dug out an old WW cookbook that I'm excited to cook from once I can eat all types of foods again.

As a proud card carrying couch potato I'm also very excited up the new fall TV shows!


Monday, September 12, 2011

4 days out

So I'm on day 4 of being banded and also being on a liquid diet, ugh... I'm a little worried that I might start eating a finger or something in my sleep. Even my 2 year old's leftover food is looking appearing :-)... I know I can do this... I'm enjoying some wonderful chicken broth as we speak... I can't wait until week 3 when I can have eggs and mushies and be able to chew again. Anyone have any food suggestions that helped you along the way?

Thanks! Lucy

Saturday, September 10, 2011


So I did it! On Thursday I was banded and I'm now home healing up. I have to say that I am still very sore but surprisingly I'm not hungry at all. I have been doing my Unjury protein shakes (so tasty it feels like a treat) and also I have been eating a half a cup of food three times a day (pudding, soup, jello and the such). I'm trying my best to drink my water but I'm also sleeping a lot so it is making it hard to get all of my fluids. Pictures will be posted soon, I'm very happy I did this.

Weight the day of surgery: 274.6

Sunday, September 4, 2011

I am my Mother's Daughter

OK I have written and deleted this first sentence 20 times over so here goes. Yesterday on September 3rd my Mom passed away with me by her side. My mother had always seemed so healthy to me she was always thin, tan ,and beautiful and just seemed invincible. Unfortunately my mother was diagnosed with Peripheral Vascular Disease 2 years ago this November. Her disease lead to Kidney failure,2 heart attacks and finally one of the main vessels leading into her bowels became blocked and was not able to deliver the blood needed to stay alive. I spent the last 5 days at the hospital making decisions my Mother had tried to help prepare me for and quickly realized there was no way to prepare for such a loss. I did my best to make my Mom proud and help my Step Father by doing all the things he just couldn't handle doing. My Mom was only 44 years old and I'm completely heartbroken. I never told my Mother about my choice to have Lap Band or the upcoming surgery as she would have had a hard time keeping the secret. I take comfort in knowing that my Mother will be with me on this journey. Now more than ever, I will take her strength and use the pain I felt these past days to help me succeed. I want to do anything and everything I can to be healthy, I do not want my children to have to feel the loss and make the decision that I have had to do. Thankfully my children will only know fun times with my Mom they aren't old enough to realize she was sick or see her pain. I won't have to explain why she isn't around and see their hearts break, but when they are older I will have pictures and wonderful stories to share with them about how much she loved them.

My Step Father is staying with us as he just can't face going back to their house and town where everyone knows and will want to share with sorrow with him. He is here where my Mom wanted him to be with moments of happy distractions from his Grandchild. I just talked to him about my surgery that is coming up in 4 short days. He said my Mom would have been proud of my choice and supported me but he too agrees that she would have had a hard time keeping the information to herself :-) He is happy to support me and help with the aftermath. I'm so lucky to have him.

I just want to say how thankful I am to have you ladies who are more or less strangers to share my feelings and hardships with. I'm so thankful I have a place to speak freely and openly and relieve some of my pain. Typing is my easier than talking.

My Surgery is Thursday 9/8 and I'm ready for the life change.