Friday, May 25, 2012
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Well, that ladies, is what I have been pretty good at lately. We had a great vacation filled with lots of walking, lots of smiles and lots of Disney. Luckily for me, aside from the ocean, Disney is my favorite place to be. We did eat like we were on vacation, including me. I told myself I wouldn’t, but I did. The worst that I ate was an entire bag of cotton candy, a candy apple, and a macadamia nut turtle, along with lots of sweet tea. Sweet tea in Maine is just not the same as it is the south.
I have not exercised in 3 weeks and I’m feeling it. Between eating like crap and no exercise, I’m finding myself moody, lacking energy, and just feeling like total shit.
So what am I going to do about it? Well, lately I’m all talk. I literally have to talk myself out get myself pumped up, and then I will do better. I’m pretty sick right now with a sinus infection and also the sweats (ugh), so once that goes away SB and I will start running again. He too as been off the wagon. He is the perfect weight but stills aims to be healthy.
I did call my doctor to push my fill ahead, as I have to start jury duty on the 21st which was the same day as my next fill. So I go on Thursday this week to get my fill, and I can’t wait. One thing about me is I don’t deliberately eat sliders (aside from my Greek yogurt); therefore, I know my food intake will be reduced significantly once I get my fill. I haven’t been drinking my protein shakes because I haven’t been giving 100% to being healthy, i.e. exercising and eating right. The shakes cost too much to drink to then turn around and have a grilled cheese.
Up until today I hadn’t weighed myself in 33 days. I stepped on today and I had a loss of .9 I’m down to 234.1. I don’t deserve to be down even that much, not with the way I have been eating. I am happy I didn’t gain, but I’m not looking at it thinking that I will be able to eat like crap and still maintain once I reach my goal weight. This isn’t just about being smaller it is about being healthy. When I’m eating and exercising both my physical and mental health is so much better. Knowing that, you would think I wouldn’t go down the wrong path like I do.
Why do we hurt ourselves? I’m not an emotional eater so I can’t blame it on any stress I’m dealing with. It is just self destruction/stupidity.
Well, really do feel like shit from my sinus infection and fever so I’m going to end this. I just need to get back in step and I know using this will help me to get there. I will be catching up on blogs this week as well.
Please don’t hold back feel free to tell me to stop fucking up.
Saturday, February 18, 2012
I went ahead and got an un-fill but my doctor felt it was pointless to only take out .25ccs and that I wouldn’t notice it so be took out .5 ccs to take me back down to 4. I miss the restriction that I had with 4.5 and I guess that tells me that I just need to chew better and accept the loss of some foods in order to use the band as it should be used.
I have lost a total of 40 pounds so far. That is pretty exciting.
We are leaving for Disney on Monday and I was so excited to pack and fit into all of the shorts I wore on my honeymoon in 2008.
Blog to you soon!
Thursday, February 9, 2012
As you may recall I had both a fill and un-fill on January 20th (as written here).
I have since been having some small problems that continue to happen in general and not just when I eat too quickly, don’t chew well enough, and eat foods that don’t get along with my band.
When eating moist chicken for example: I will chew it right and sometimes as soon as the first bite but often after a couple bites I start to “feel” my band. I’m not sure if it is my band that I’m feeling but I am getting a feeling very similar to getting something stuck. Most often there is nothing stuck and sometimes I have had to PB. I know it isn’t due to eating too much because I’m getting this feeling after just a few bites, we are talking about 1/4 cup of food here.
I looked online and I do not have indigestion, or night coughs but my weight loss has slowed and again I’m uncomfortable whenever I eat. The only time I don’t notice this feeling is when I’m eating yogurt or another slider type food.
I’m often tight in the morning and get the burps after drinking just a little but this eases up and my Doctor did inform me morning tightness is normal.
Okay long story short, I called my Doctors today and spoke with one of the lovely ladies or I believe also had a band if not she had gastric (she has talked about it with others but I haven’t caught what procedure she has, just that she has had one). She told me that I shouldn’t being feel discomfort when I eat and that I should only feel that when I don’t chew right, don’t eat the right foods, or eat to much. Just as I had read online.
So I scheduled an appointment for an un-fill next Wednesday.
Do you think I was right in doing so, is what I’m experiencing normal for you veterans?
I just don’t want to back step I really want to get this right and it is so hard when you don’t really know what to feel and what is normal.
I am currently at 4.5 ccs and I’m hoping that the doc will just take me down to 4.25ccs as last time I felt as if 4ccs wasn’t enough.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
So I have been around but I have not been a good blogger. Thanks to a friend I’m addicted to a new book trilogy and that has been keeping me from my blog. If anyone likes a good romance with some added adult smut you really must read the Fifty Shades of Gray trilogy by E.L. James. Really good book.
I weighed in yesterday for only a .2 pound loss… that is point two… ugh. I did take off 3 days from exercise during my Birthday extravaganza but I didn’t eat too badly.
Speaking of my B-day Saturday night we went to a friends house for poker and board games (two of our favorite things). When we do this as a group we always order pizza. I didn’t want to load up on pizza but I also didn’t have any choices that wouldn’t come to me having at least been fried. I went with Chicken Fingers. The fingers were really good homemade chicken with a very, very thin batter. However, they were dry. I was able to slowly eat two but had to excuse myself and PB in the bathroom due to the dryness. Now I had already been told how good I was looking so I was just hoping that they wouldn’t hear me and think that I had a new eating disorder (I consider overeating like I was before as an eating disorder). Thankfully no one heard me. I went back and did have 1 piece of pizza. Our friend is also a manager for Lindt chocolate so as usually there was lots of that. He very nicely gave us some 70% dark chocolate for Valentines day and I kept it because well 70% dark if not eaten in large amounts isn’t bad for you. Over all I did great. I had the2 chicken fingers, 1 piece of pizza, and two chocolates. I did not have chips or soda.
For my birthday meal my MIL made me homemade baked beans and red hotdogs. If you aren’t from New England you may not understand my request for that as a b-day meal and you may have never in your life heard of red hotdogs. She also made homemade rolls and got me my favorite birthday cake.
I also had to celebrate my birthday during the Super Bowl ugh! So I read my book, enjoyed family company and watched the commercials.
So my weight is just not coming off at the speed that I think it could be. I have lost 37.7 pounds since my surgery on September 8th. That is an average of 7.5 pounds a month. But my weight loss has slowed and the majority of that loss is from the beginning of this trip.
To help me along I have set some goals.
1) Exercise more. Do more cardio in addition to the c25k program and add in strength training.
2) Have 3 to 4 protein shakes a day. I always notice more weight loss when I’m using the Unjury Protein Drinks.
3) Log my food even if I hate doing it!
4) Water, Water, Water, H. 2. O.
My new mini weight loss goal is to be under 200 by July 8th. That is 5 months from today and I think I’m setting the bar kinda low so if I work at it I know I can do it.
I hope you are all doing better than me because I need to read your blogs and push to be like you